Detmich, I wish I could send this message to you privately. Women have been used and abused throughout history-sometimes it's self-inflicted and mostly not. Please don't feel you have to revisit an era of your life that is painful to you. May I suggest something? You sound like a strong, faithful person, and I am sure you have chatted with God about that phase of your life. Forgive yourself for what happened then, because He already did. Move on and leave the hatred behind, but use your anger to prevent such incidents for others when you can.

Everybody has some phase of their lives they aren't to proud of, especially if you lived through the 60's-70's. It's how we process the our experiences about those times that determine if we have grown in maturity. You have matured.